I miss James :(

Today Shawn took James to Huntsville to visit his side of the family while me and mom went looking at houses and just talking. We made an unplanned trip to AL on Wednesday b/c my mom just needed some support b/c of her jerk soon to be ex husband. It was a nice visit and I think we got some stuff accomplished. Once James arrived home all he talked about was Uncle Matt jumping in the pool with him and PaPaw's tractor. Shawn said Matt held James hand while he jumped off the diving board and that James loved it.

Anyway back to James going to HSV without me. This was the first time I had been away from him for that period of time. For the past 2 years I have stayed home with him and he has been the center of my world. I thought it would be great but I was SO depressed and bawled like a baby when he left. I think I called Shawn every 2 hours to make sure he was ok. He was fine and enjoyed spending time with the cousins and family. Gran and PaPaw's house has lots of toys for kids like tractors, 4 wheelers, pool etc. My mom and I spent time together and my sister and I went to Florence to get a cookie...so not good for diet but so good going down. Plus had to get James one b/c I missed him. I thought maybe going to work would be good for me b/c I don't want to be this sad as he slowly leaves me. I am going to check on a foster care job back home but if it is meant to be it will happen. It will be hard being without him so I don't know. I miss him so much and it is amazing how quickly our lives change once we become mommies. My world revolves around a little round, short man :). Yes he tests me often but I wouldn't change it for the world. I struggle with my weight right now but ya know that too isn't top priority as long as I am healthy and doing what is best for me and my family. God will take care of the rest. I am just so used to being the "skinny" girl so it's a bit hard. Motherhood is the toughest job I'll ever love!!
James is so funny and I can't wait for him to get home in about 30 minutes!!! I missed him SO much!!! On the way here he was stubborn and being a bit crabby b/c he refused to nap the entire 6 hour drive. Shawn said "don't make me pull this car over and spank you" JAmes looked at him and said "Daddy you ugly" Then looked at him again and said "Daddy you CRAZE (aka CRAZY)" Shawn and I had to look out the window as we were laughing hysterically!! So funny!!